Managing My Worries

Last weekend, I promised everyone I would post three times this week. I’m keeping my promise so excuse the random time postings. Life happened.

After a series of arguments regarding how to pay bills for October (which I will discuss in multiple posts), my previous weekend ended in mental and emotional exhaustion. I started this week overwhelmed and feeling out of myself. Trapped. Striving to build a better life and career while figuring out how to pay rent. I never had to worry about eviction before.

Historically, I responded to stressful situations by shutting down mentally and emotionally, binge-eating and binge-watching. My immediate reaction was to numb the pain.

As I brainstormed how to generate money quickly, I realized I wasn’t in a head space to write authentically. My energy was focused on solving an urgent problem by applying for numerous part-time jobs at a local mall and several full-time jobs in sales and customer service positions.

I wasn’t getting much sleep. I lied awake with my mind racing. What if I get evicted? Was I doing enough research on my desired commercial real estate career paths? Was I educating myself enough outside of the program? Was I asking enough questions? What if I’m not doing enough? What if I complete the program, obtain my certificate versus lucrative, full-time CRE job offers and solidified relationships via networking? Am I stagnant? How can I fix my family’s financial crisis? What if I’m not good enough?

The Remedy

I received a self-care tip from the Shine app Thursday recommending I write my worries down. So I did.

Then, I wrote down the facts. I reminded myself when I found the program application it was for a reason. When I applied, I knew I would get an interview. I knew I would be selected for the Fall cohort. I successfully made it through the competitive selection process.

I reminded myself I bring a wealth of knowledge, creativity, my personal story, my business acumen and leadership skills to the table. I reminded myself to confidently apply for the jobs I qualify for and quickly learn additional skills employers desire.

I reminded myself I have grown in the past seven months. I am a more self-aware, emotionally aware and emotionally intelligent woman. I have clarity on what I desire in the relationship with myself, what I want in my familial and platonic relationships, my career, my passions and my finances. Consequently, I am less overwhelmed and more optimistic. It’s an ongoing process.

How do you manage stress? 

Author: BellaDour

Writer. Screenwriter. Poet. I write about personal development, self-care and adulting

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